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Sakitnya kali ini Diperut sebelah kiri God. Bagaimana ini? Apa ini berbahaya? Atau sekedar efek-efek biasa saja? tidak. Disini tidak memar aku lihat. Tidak luka juga. Entah? Akupun tak tau apa yg salah pada bagian ini. Tapi ini benar-benar sakit. Rasanya seperti ummm... seperti melepuh ya melepuh, pedih. Tidak, tidak merah juga. Engga kok. Aku ga jatuh atau kena apa-apa. Ini murni dateng sendiri. Iya nih. Tiduran susah deh. Tapi Gapapa deh God, yang jelas kan masih bisa jalan ama lari hehe. Cepet sembuhin ya God. Please J makasi, love you.

ibu, ayah, ketahuilah..

Dear Mom and Dad.

I’m your first daughter who cant make you proud, tonight wanna say something that maybe never you think before. I really Regret of my unsuccess test. I think both of you know that i also never wanna it. That’s destiny right? I did the best yesterday. I do it just for prove you that i can make you happy and proud. But the truth say somethin’ different.

I think i’m different with another girl. I’m not like them who can show up all that they feel. I’m not as open-end as they are. I’m just me who look so bad. Not flexible. Selfish. And the other. Why you dont wanna try to look me in another sides? Deep down inside i have sensitive feeling. I’m coward. I’m weak. I’m whine. Dont you know it?

If you say that i’m never thinking about both of you, thats really wrong. Maybe i’m too much in that. You never know that as can as possible i hidden everything that can make you sad or somethin else. I always do that. But yeah, the core is i dont do something that really meant for you yet. I’m sory. I tried. But that’s failed.

Yes i’m silent, annoying. And look so irresponsive. But you never know that i’m too sensitive when feel something. I’m not too dare to say SORY as directly to both of you. I dont know why. I just feel so scare and shy to do it. i actually wanna do that. Wanna take your hand and kiss it and say “appologize me mom, dad because i cant make you happy and proud” i really wanna do that. Not just in this problem. But also of another problem before. But God dont give me more brave for do that. Maybe this is not the time. Everything happen automatically in the right time. And oneday i will do it. i will sit on your knees.

I believe that everything happen for a reason. And God always promise that always there is a rainbow after the bad rain. And i still wait it. i wait it.

Mom, Dad. I promise i’ll be better than before. But please understand that everything that we want is not ofcourse can we take. I mean everyone has measure one each other, right? And God always give us everything that suit with our measuring. Above the sky still there another sky. So we shouldn’t blame one each other right?

Oh ya, onething that maybe never there in your mind is i always miss your HUG. I never feel that. Do you ever think this before? I wanna like my friends who can HUG their mother and father as free. Maybe we have high prestige one each other so we cant do it. hehehe nevermind. I believe that one day we’ll do that J

The last is, i really regret cause of this. Appologize me. give me pardon. I’m sory. I love you.

From your bad child

that always make you angry, sad, also shy

Sory.