http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sMzAt-xalqc

secret song for you

you were there to light my day

you were there to guide me through

from the days down and on 

i'll never stop thingking of you

how can i forget all that

when you're the one who make me smile

you'll always be apart of me

how i wish you were still mine

never will forget the day

how we've met and came this far

weall know we got this feeling

but somehoe it has to end up here

i know it's me who said goodbye

and thats the hardest thing to do

cause you mean so much to me

and guide the truth from me to you

for all the thing i've done and said

for all the hurt that i've cause you

i hope you will forgive me baby 

cause that wasn't wat i meant to do

23 AGUSTUS 2011

ya allah bellaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
kok bego bener sihhhhhhhhhhhhh !!!!!!!!!!
jijik tau sama lu !
ya allah aku gak tau mau mulai cerita nih darimana , nak nangis nian kalo bahas ini .
gini ya bloggy, aku nih naksir sama cowo yg sering aku sebut p-shone .
nah si cowo nih kakak kelas aku, bahasa kerennya senior aku .
nah si p-shone nih ganteng cakep cool (sebenarnya aku berlebihan) intinya gitu lah, yg namanya orang naksir tu muji muji trus lah .
haa aku pernah cerita diposting terdahulu kalo aku lah ketahap smsan sama dia .
bengaknya aku malah pacaran sama kawan dekat dia, dak sejahat itu .
hilangkan fikiran negatif anda ke saya
maksudnya , aku dak pacaran sm kawannya tu karna aku cinta atau sayang, aku cuma mau jadiin dia sebagai media ketemu p-shone:(
terserah deh mau bilang jahat atau apa , gini ya semua pasti bertanya kenapa sayabisa jadian sma temennya ??
the answer is : p-shone menghilang seketika , jelas dong aku khawatir plus curiga :( nah pemikiranku p-shone hilang karna dia ud ad gebetan baru , hancur banget tauga perasaan aku :'(
ga sanggup mau ceritanya :'(

23 agustus 2011

today is my father's birthday :)
happy birthday my beloved father :*
i wish you get long age, always health, be kindder, more handsome, more energic, and always get much money for me :D
ahahaha
i and all people love you so much daddy :)

14 agustus 2011

malem itu aku lagi sibuk buat laporan biologi :/ soalnya besoknya mau dikumpul, jadi nahan kantuk deh buat tugas sampe larut malem :(
tiba tiba hape ku bunyi, ada sms masuk ternyata, tapi ga aku gubris, soalnya lagi konsen buat tugas .
trus ada yg nelpoon, mau ga mau diangket -_- waktu aku liat siapa penelponnya eh malah nomer asing yg keluar, aku angkat aja ..
eh malah dimatiin :@ nyebelin kan !
waktu aku buka sms yg ud numpuk, ada salah satu sms dari nmer yg tadi nelpon, aku baca deyy
isinya gini :

 ini bella ya ? temennya dodot*samaran* ?
(pengirim)

iya :/ siapa ya ? lagi repot nih .

aku abangnya dodot, mau tanya sedikit bisa ?
(pengirim)

tanya apaan bang ? bisa ditunda ? lagi konsen buat tugas nih :/

mau tanya aja, lo pacaran ya sama anak yg rumahnya deket ******** (ga baik alamatnya disebut :D)(pengirim)

iya kenapa ?

siapa itu namanya ?
(pengirim)


oh namanya dudung*samaran*
kenapa ?


gua telpon aja ya ?
(pengirim)


iya deh, buruan !

tenotenot aku ditelpon :D

dia : cowo lu tado nge BM cewe gue, cewe gue namanya nunung*samaran lagi*
aku : trus ?
dia : kok terus sih ? cewe gue ga ngerespon, eh cowo elu yg ngebeeeet banget sama cewe gue , dia ada ngeBM gini "ynk", trus cewe gue kasih tu BB ke gue, suruh gue yg nanggepin cowo lu, gue tanya ama temen gue, "ynk" itu apaan, trus temen gue blg "goblok lu, "ynk" itu sama aja sama sayang" trus gue marah dong, gue ladenin aja . gue bales "iya?" trus dia bales lagi "pengen ketemuaaan, tadi malem nonton arakan saur dimana?" trus gue bales "aku nonton sama temen" pokoknya gitugitu deh, trus akhirnya gue ajakin ketemuan didepan lapangan tenis, dideket spider.net itu lo, tau kan ?
nah, dia dateng, pas liat gue dy ga jadi stop
aku : ooh, haha makasih infonya ya bang :)
dia : nyante bener nanggepinnya ? iya sama sama, tanya aja ke dia, gue kasian aja sama lo, adek gue temen lo, makanya gue dapet nomer lo, lo tanyain baik baik dulu deh, kalo dia tanya bukti, lo telpon gue aja, ntar gue bersaksi kok :)
aku : okeeeeey makasi yah bang :)

heran yaw konsentrasi aku ga hancur hanya karna telpon dan berita itu, sempat gemetar marah sih, tapi ga dahsyat :D trus dengan sante aku sms deh si dudung itu, aku tanya baik baik eh malah die ngebentak, keliatan banget salahnya, aku sebenernya ga marah yaa, cuma mau kejelasan aja, eeeh malah dia berlebihan huh dasar cowo kalo ketangkap basah ga jelas deh hidupnya haha
sampe sekarang hubungan aku sama dia GANTUNG, aku sih masih nunggu etikat baik dia buat ngejelasin, tapi sampe detik ini belum ada, but umm honey i still wait it :) we can talking about this with good right ?

malam ini cinta datang mengetuk tapi pergi sebelum pintu dibuka (monty tiwa)

sebenernya kurang ngerti apa maksud emoticon yang satu ini, bisa diartiin someone yg sedang menahan tangis, bisa juga terharu, dan sebagainya deh .
intinya perasaan aku sekarang seperti itu T-T

dosa dosaku mungkin bagai debu T-T
aku ini umat paling berdosa rasanya :'( kalo inget inget soal dosa rasanya mau nagis muluuu ya allah
aku minta maaf ya allah, aku minta maaf banget ;'( aku sering mempersalahkan-MU, aku selalu protes pada pemberianmu T-T
tapi itu dulu, sekarang aku sudah mencoba memandang segala yg terjadi padaku dengan persepsi yg positif :)
aku suka banget ama selogan ALLAH MEMBERI YANG KITA BUTUHKAN, BUKAN YG KITA INGINKAN :)
it's mean all that ever you give to me is all that i need, and for that i wanna say so much thx for you :)

hihihi
aku sukaaa banget main balon balonan tiup itu :)
rasanya rilex aja kalo udah main gituan, apalagi kalo mainnya ditanah kosong yang banyak angin :) atauu ditempat tinngi .

:')

yeah i need friend like i need heartbeat :) but sometimes i hate friend like a moeslem hate pig :)
know why ?
yes we all know that friend is someone who can help us in all condition, but most of friend right now is killer :)
they can kill us whenever and wherever they want .
i just hope my old friend and my now friend not like that, i love them .

i love all about you, in my brain, you look so perfect, i always wanna you in all my time, really, i wanna admit it infront of you, i wanna say that i really love you :*

bukannya gue ga tau kalo lo orang yg ngebocorin rahasia gue !
lo sadar ga sih lo itu bitches hah ?
norak lo ! BACKSTABBER ! gue benci elo !
lo seharusnya tau kalo ini ga ada urusannya sama lo !
kenapa mesti ikut campur sih :@
sejahat jahat nya elo sama gue, gue tetep senyum ama lo !
lo seharusnyo sadar, gue bisa ngelakuin 1000x lipat lebih parah dari yg lo lakuin ke gue !


to ; both of you guys :)

falling apart :)

Maybe it's because I'm crazy,
Maybe it's because I just can't,
Honestly tell you what I want.
It's never enough to stay still and hold you,
To break loose and run the taste of you,
Wild on my tongue.

Am I no good to you now?
Am I no good to you now?
Whoa-oh, whoa-oh whoa-oh
We're spilling over.
Whoa-oh, whoa-oh whoa-oh
We're falling apart.

Spent my days with doctors,
And my nights with crooks,
And all of them who sell me for a song.
So I'm here.
Safe Dear.
A fiction in your arms.

Am I no good to you now?
Am I no good to you now?
Whoa-oh, whoa-oh whoa-oh
We're spilling over.
Whoa-oh, whoa-oh whoa-oh
We're falling apart.

So get me out
Start me over
Forever changed
I should have told you
Whoa-oh, whoa-oh whoa-oh
I'm falling apart.

Cause all I say,
It doesn't matter anyway.
All I say,
It doesn't matter anyway.
I'm giving up,
So call my bluff.
Cause I just need to be reminded who I am.
I'm falling apart.

Whoa-oh, whoa-oh whoa-oh
We're spilling over.
Whoa-oh, whoa-oh whoa-oh
We're falling apart.

I'm giving up.
Starting over.
I wanna be,
I wanna hold you.
Whoa-oh, whoa-oh whoa-oh
We're Falling apart.

So wanna be loved?
So wanna be loved?
So come on now
Come on love.

na na na ~

i'm sensitive i over think every littl thing and i care way more than i should

the scariest part in being loved by somone is the uncertainly that they may stop anytime

it's hard to find the good in someone when you already found the best in someone else

anyone can be passionate but it takes real lovers to be silly .